God Changed Me

For the past months I feel emotionless inside. I tried my best to it keep within myself pretending to be happy for the sake of my family and friends. As time passed it began to show in my behavior more and more. The thoughts that came to my mind were unbelievable. Depression was taking me over then I remembered GOD had a plan for me and I began to pray every night for this feeling to go away. After a couple of days my mom told me something which was "LET GO"  that was the message from God. I was holding my past hurts and heart aches that would cause me to cry when someone would correct me or would just be making a joke. This was when I realized that those hurts were causing me to be emotionally unstable and it was only now taking a toll on me as a person. I needed to let go of the past and welcome the future into my life. As I began to do that my relationship with mom began blossoming into something brand new. God has answered my prayers. My happniess is now overwhelming. With this simple change I began to see that the people around me only want the best for me and are trying to help me and now it is only for me to better myself as a person. Thank You God for everything. 

  

Wisdom comes from the downs

It was a regular day of school but just this day in particular felt different inside of me for some reason. As I entered the classroom I slipped straight on to wet the floor and ripped my skirt straight down the middle as if it was torn in half. The whole class start to laugh at me but one person and that person was Jamie. Although she did not laugh I still ran to bathroom and start to cry. In the middle of my cry Jamie knocked on the door and give me a new skirt. I took the skirt and changed my ripped one. Then tears took me over again. During the second cry a voice in my head told me to stop crying and walk out confident.  I decided to listen so I did exactly what the voice said to do when I walk in everyone just watch me as if there was something on my face but all did was smile. After arriving at my seat I said thank you to Jamie. This one accident showed me that you do not laugh at people when they are down and out but instead you try to help them. Being in Jesus now made realize that this one incident happened to show me that there are times to laugh at a joke and then there are time you just do not laugh due to the fact that it might hurt the person on the reviving end. I also learnt that last person you expect to help you is the one that turns to be the one to give the helping hand. This is why you never burn the bridges you cross because you never know when you might need that bridge.  Also thank god for the problems you have in your life and the great things you have as well in your life. Praise him every day for everything you have in your life and do not take your life because it is a blessing that you cannot even imagine form god. He is the light in my life and he could be the one in your life to just let him in your heart because he is knocking for that entrance so give it to him with open arms.

Words Are The Wind That Blows

 Life is a rollercoaster for me in general. Today was a total unexpected fall. The story began in the simplest way possible. It was regular Monday morning in school as i walked into school’s building. I saw one of my classmate sitting and texting on her phone. I decided to say good morning but she did not respond to my statement so i stayed quite. Around five minutes later one of my friends came up to me and we began talking. Out of the blue my classmate just interrupted our conversation and began to give me attitude for no reason. For me it came across as a shock with a sting of pain in one because I never expect this situation to occur with that person in particular. It made me just want to dig a hole and jump into it so no one will ever see my face again but instead I ran to the bathroom and cried my eyes out. This one incident opened up my eyes to the bigger picture which showed me that  people are not everything you make them out to be and no matter how much you try to help them you cannot change the way they look at you as person. In addition I learnt that you should not let peoples words offend you as a person because they cannot define you as person, the only one that can do that is you. I know that you will feel hurt in inside but do not let it get to you like it did to me because it is just not worth it. You will only embarrass yourself and your dignity will go down not the persons. Also put all your trust in god not a person because he is the light that shines over darkness and you can trust him with everything you have in your life. Never forget that in life ever.  

spilling ink

Spilling Ink is a club that I joined to develop my writing because of the field I wanted to join or partake in my future life. This club is not only a writing club, but it is a club to help encourage the youths of our school which is Trillium International School, in Trinidad. This purpose is to help build self-confidence and help them overcome shyness. This is what the club is all about if you want you can check out our blogs to see what we up to or what we are doing.